Full Blown Technicolor

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Wed, 16 May 2007 01:45:15 GMT

It's strange how much a person can fuck you up.
Ever since we broke up I just feel empty.
Emotionally dead.
Devoid of any feelings besides missing him.
I have kissed a lot of guys/gone on dates/flirted, etc,
but none of them compare to him.

I feel like a shell of a person.
I'm just...........empty inside.
and mostly I am scared this will never go away.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Sat, 14 Apr 2007 22:42:41 GMT

Anyone who knows me knows how much i love Incubus. Without a doubt they are my favorite band. Today I had the best moment of my life when their guitarist messaged me on myspace. Seriously..i cannot stop smiling. I have seen them 9 times in concert and have yet to meet any of them. The fact that he has seen my picture and acknowledged that i exist is just.....surreal. and amazing. and i have never been happier. I never want to forget this.

Read from the bottom up.

that's horrible, poor cat :(

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: buried to my neck in sand
Date: Apr 14, 2007 2:48 PM

when i was younger my cat got struck by lightning. She survived for a few days and then died from a heart attack. after she was struck her hair stood straight out. It was a pretty funny sight.

Feel better mikey!

<3
Jackie

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: Michael Einziger
Date: Apr 14, 2007 12:50 PM

anyone out there in Myspace-land get struck by lightning or had any close encounters with lightning? i u'd take the time to tell me your stories i could more easily pass away the time i can't play guitar :) thanks for indulging my madness...

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Wed, 24 Jan 2007 15:46:30 GMT

Normally I dont believe in horoscopes....but then i get one like this:

Not much can get in your way today except for your own imagination, which will either spur you on to greater heights or bring on a bit of depression. Still, there is too much going on for you now to fall too deeply into your fears and worries. Use your dreams to create a scenario for the concrete expression of your innermost feelings.

And I think these things may actually be real. How do they know what i am thinking/feeling so well?
And maybe it wouldnt have freaked me out so much if Brent's wasnt equally as true.

Also.....I LOVE THIS SEMESTER!!!!!!

I have never ever in my whole life been so excited for my English classes.
I love both of my seminars and the teachers.
especially chris's bulge
and Stace's "fucks" every other word.
Painting will be just swell.
And bio is easyyyy compared to some of the hard shit i've had to learn
And Lab will be a cake walk thanks to Grazia.
I dont even mind that 4 days a week i have to wake up before 8am.

Major GPA repair will actually happen this semester.

On another note...everyone needs to enjoy this last semester.
no more being sad/stressed
It's our last freakin' one!!!!

Also..I am so amped on Caffeine right now
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Peace. Love. & Happiness.
&hearts;

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Mon, 04 Dec 2006 01:47:09 GMT

I am obsessed with Incubus.
I think I need help.
only 57 more days until I see them!!!!!!
eeeeeeeeeekkkk

(also brent = brandon boyd. you cant deny it.)

Two things that nearly made me pee my pants:

+

They are from threadless.com and I wear a size M
if anyone wants to buy them for me for x-mas.

After Thursday all I have left is a final drawing and a paper.
sahhhweeet.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Wed, 29 Nov 2006 14:58:24 GMT

I have become one of those people who just doesn't care.
school used to = my life.
now i could care less.
all i want to do is graduate.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Wed, 01 Nov 2006 20:27:35 GMT

I realized today that I have been drunk for almost 90% of this semester so far.
Some evidence:

This was taken the second night in our apartment

It's always a bad sign when you cant even sit up on your own

I fell down drunk after Nicky peed in the corner of TJ Maxx

I don't even remember this or the party

This is pretty much what we deal with every sunday morning.

I'm a little worried about my grades this year.
I think this could be the semester that I dont make Dean's List.

Do I even care?
Not really and that's the problem.

Case in point my plans for the next 4 days:
Tonight -- Dancing at the Kels/bar hopping
Thursday -- Dancing drunk at Rocktoberfest
Friday -- Nicky and Amanda's b-day party
Saturday -- Probably hanging out drunk in a gutter somewhere.

Good times. Good times.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Thu, 26 Oct 2006 01:44:40 GMT

I haven't updated this thing in months. Does anyone even use LJ anymore?

Life is.....confusing. I probably wouldn't want it any different though.
I really miss: my mom and dad, my cat, NH, fall foliage, my sisters, my car.

I need to do major GPA repair. I have slacked off a lot this semester. A lot lot.
I just have senioritis so bad. It's really difficult getting work done.

Enough words. picture time:

Sometimes I kiss Amanda

Sometimes I try making out with Jessica

Most of the time I just try eating people.

And this has basically been my semester.

Peace out

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Tue, 01 Aug 2006 17:37:36 GMT

Dear Friends:

This is the best stuff EVER created. I would sell my first born to get a lifetime supply of this stuff. Seriously.

In other news: Summer's almost over and I am pretty happy about that. Not that I dont love Summer,
but I am ready to get back to school and live in my apartment and have more than 2 friends again.

After an unfortunate accident involving some water, a dock, and my clumsy feet,
I finally got the finishing touches on my front tooth. I wanted to get a set of grills but my dad said no. (just kidding)

So I am dating this really nice boy. It's casual and fun. And its helping me get over Mark.
Me = not a relationship person. So I figure i'll just keep him as a nice summer fling.

I'm getting my hair cut next week. I want something drastically different.
I'm considering bangs. Like real bangs, not those fake things i try and pass off as bangs.
suggestions?

It's supposed to be 100 Degrees Farenheit tomorrow. And it's 99 Degrees today.
So I plan on living at the lake today and tomorrow. So if you need me you can find me swimming with the fishes.
(but not in the Mafia sense).

Later.
Jackie

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Thu, 08 Jun 2006 23:06:32 GMT

So far this summer I have :
been working 40+ hours a week
read 4 books
talked on the phone to Mark nearly every night
bought lots of clothes
only been drunk once
not found an internship
been ridiculously tired and sick these past few days
cursed mother nature and the rain
been missing Boston and friends like woah!

[the end back to work]

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Sun, 14 May 2006 16:15:24 GMT

2 am phone calls that last for an hour
are my favorite thing.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Fri, 05 May 2006 19:23:14 GMT

So I'm sorry I've been such a moody bitch these past few days.
I measure all of my self worth by my grades
I think I may pull out a 4.0 this semester so the past 4 months of stress were worth it.

I wish I was staying in Boston for the summer.
But not having to see the same people everyday will be nice.
I like variety.
But I will miss my friends so much.
I'm not really sure I know how to function without you all.

So now I am going to enjoy the fact that I am done with the semester from hell.
And I am going to enjoy this weather.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Mon, 10 Apr 2006 21:53:18 GMT

Dear Gwyneth Paltrow:

Congratulations on your new baby boy. I heard he was born this weekend (possibly on my birthday).
Having kids is supposed to be amazing (i wouldnt nor probably will ever know).
But I have a problem with your choice of name.
I have defended you for two years now and feel like you are pushing it with this one.
I mean, even when "sky captain and the world of tomorrow" was said to be the worst movie of the year,
I tried to stay positive and point out how funny some parts of it was.
No one liked your perfromance in "Sylvia" but me.
And I even bought "Proof" and am probably the only person in the whole world.
I defended your gown choice for this years golden globes pointing out that
Balenciaga is a kinda "out there" fashion house and you were just trying to be original.
I even defended your weird accent at this years Golden Globes where you pronounced
"anthony" weird whilst presenting to Anthony Hopkins blaming it on the fact that
you've been spending a lot of time in England lately.
And I've even been defending your recent choice of movie roles including "infamous" which
is just a copy of "Capote" minus Philip Seymour Hoffman's brillant performance.
I've even defended your daughter's name, Apple.
But MOSES? How the fuck am I supposed to defened that?
You've let me down on this one.
And I'm not sure we can repair this relationship.
I'm heart broken.

Sincerely,
Your (possibly) former #1 fan
Jacqueline B. Masten

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Sat, 01 Apr 2006 19:50:26 GMT

I am updating for Sima.

These past few days have been Beautiful
Wednesday, Thursday, Friday were amazing.
I love walking in the city.

Jess, Nicky and I found the most beautiful apartment in coolidge corner.
I hope we get it.

I am at work. Blah. And I've done nothing this whole time.
How lazy.

We change our clocks tomorrow. I hate that.

My birthday is in 6 days. Who wants to come celebrate at the bars?

That is all.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Wed, 22 Feb 2006 18:09:22 GMT

My dad is a genious and fixed my computer in about 2.5 seconds.
Seriously, he just like touched it and it was fixed.
For someone who is self taught he is really smart.

Being home this weekend was amazing. I didn't want to come back to school.
This semester is rough. If I survive this semester then I know I will graduate from college.

So I am pretty sure I am the girl on the floor that no one knows for sure if I actually live here. I walk into the bathroom and the other girls give me that look people give when they've never seen you before. I've lived here on the second floor for almost 6 months and I still only know one person and that is Suzy. (well two, because I know Josh McCabe, but because I dont see him at 8am in the bathroom I feel like that's different). Way to be antisocial.

I have a lot to do so I dont know why I am updating. But I just can't study anymore. My brain refuses to.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Mon, 13 Feb 2006 22:58:37 GMT

So my computer broke. I'm pretty sure its the hard drive. I'm going home this weekend to see if my dad might be able to fix it. He's really smart. If perchance he cant fix it, then that means I've lost hundreds of photos that can never be replaced. For the first time I am seeing the downfall of having a digital camera. I've also become aware of how big of a role the internet plays in my life. I've felt really disconnected from everyone these past couple of days. I hate that. I need to obsessively check away messages. It's as essential as brushing my teeth.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Wed, 01 Feb 2006 20:59:40 GMT

My confidence is back. I lost it last year and have since been this really awkard and shy person.
Well, I'm still awkard and shy, but now it's just not so extreme.
It's a good feeling to have it back. I kinda feel like I can do anything now.

Junior year of highschool was the best year of my life. Will junior year of college prove to be the same?
If it does I plan on being a junior the rest of my life.

I should be finishing up my homework for human nutrition. All well.

I think I'm going to ho home next wekeend. I miss my parents and my cat and my sister and the frenchman (even though I dont understand what he's saying half the time.)
Plus I always watch the opening ceremony of the olympics with my mom...I don't think I have never not watched one with her. I can't break the tradition.

Sigur Ros in 5 days!!

This is all really random. I guess I have just been in a random mood lately.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Sun, 08 Jan 2006 21:04:10 GMT

Feeling like crap today. Blah. Maybe I should stop going to bed at 5am and waking at 1pm.
And maybe I should get a lobotomy so that way I can stop thinking. Because I think wayy too much.
and I over analyze too much.

And I've read every book in my house. Someone suggest something for me to read.

Another bored night...another entry.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Thu, 05 Jan 2006 05:45:54 GMT

Went shopping today. Bought lots of pretty things. Somehow I still have giftcards left from Christmas.

New Years was fun. So much fun. Probably one of the best new years ever. Well, besides that one in 8th grade when Nikki Russell came over and we ate everything in my house and passed out under the christmas tree.

I'm reading another really good book. Running With Scissors by Augusten Burroughs. I highly recommend it.

I am getting bored and really restless here in NH. I want to get back to Boston so bad. I am almost having anxiety over it. I feel really out of place here. Like I am out of my comfort zone. I remember 2 years ago when I felt just the opposite. Boston gave me anxiety and NH was my comfort zone. How times have changed.

I am trying to get to sleep at a normal time tonight. So I will end it here with a picture of me and the new love of my life: Ginger (sorry Pumpky).

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Thu, 29 Dec 2005 04:47:43 GMT

New layout. Took me about 5 hours to figure out. I am dumb with things like that.

New Years in Boston in T minus 2 days!!!!
it should be one of the best nights of my life.

Christmas was good. Lots of gift certificates.
A nice one to Sephora thanks to my sister.

I am reading In Cold Blood by Truman Capote.
A very good book.

I am off to connecticut tomorrow. Time to visit the extended Fam.
chances are I'll be bored most of the time...so give me a call and help me preserve my sanity.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Thu, 22 Dec 2005 20:08:53 GMT

Got my semester grades....my best semester yet!

In other news...As a retirement gift my dad bought himself an RV. Its ghetto. Like really ghetto. But my dad likes to buy crappy things and then make them beautiful. He did it with his boat, so I shall reserve my judgement until its all fixed up. I just briefly mentioned to him that a bunch of us might possibly want to go to Miami for spring break. Today he came to me with the whole trip planned out. So the thing sleeps six..that means there are 3 available spots. So if anyone doesn't mind spending a few days with my insane family and wants to go on a trip to Florida this March, let me know.

Christmas is soon. Really soon.

umm..that's it. My plan for today is to rearrange and decorate my room. Fun, huh?

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Thu, 15 Dec 2005 23:02:39 GMT

Today I offically became a double major. Not really sure what I am thinking. It must be a school work overload. I need to detox, quick!

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Fri, 25 Nov 2005 22:00:16 GMT

I CAN FINALLY SEE AGAIN! I got contacts. They are wonderful! Why did I wait so long to get them?

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Fri, 18 Nov 2005 16:58:18 GMT

Randomness:

In 3 days I get to go home for a whole week. Fantastic. Going home means seeing Samantha and Tyler. So excited.

I woke up in a bad mood today with several pieces of bad news. I'm over it. Most thankfully to Alliane. And to Harry Potter. And Joaquin Phoenix who will probably make me want to die from complete and utter satisfaction after I see "Walk the Line" tonight. (Did anyone else watch Conan last night? Conan + Joaquin = my fantasty. I could not handle it).

I love being able to have intelligent discussions with my friends. Nicky and I are really smart and can talk about books for hours. And Jessica and I are really talented and we can talk in depth about the trials and tribulations of being an art student. Correction: SHE is really talented..I am merely there to check out her sexy photography teacher and to meet a sexy art boy (preferably in the dark room in the style of the movie "Crazy/Beautiful"). I also like how my friends and I can be the complete opposite of smart and intelligent and be ridiculously dumb and stupid and not care who is watching and/or what they think. (I realize smart/intelligent and dumb/stupid mean the same thing).

Does anyone even read my livejournal? Probably not. But then again I am only really posting to occupy time while I sit here in this hot Language Lab signing people in and out.

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Sun, 23 Oct 2005 00:57:12 GMT

Another Drunken night at Kevins:

The night was full of peanut butter sandwiches made by kevin, new Broken Social Scene Album, some foot stool riding, secret telling, drunk dialing and an introduction to The Arcade Fire. Just perfect.

And this pic is from Nicky's birthday celebration:

I love it..so i thought i would include it.

(Rainy days = grossness.)

mastenja@emmanuel.edu — Thu, 20 Oct 2005 20:31:47 GMT

Yesterday was Veronica Bosworth Biederman's birthday....So we had a little bash for her which included bagels and cake and some fun hanging out on the roof of St. James:

(apparently Jessica nd I like to pray when friends blow out candles)

The party was full of beautiful people

Nicky and steve got married.... I tried raping anthony....

I like how my friends get pictures of me "flirting" Anthony looks sketchy

Anthony sure does like himself some jackies.....

The birthday celebrations arent even close to being done....so Happy Birthday Nicky!!!!!

also..suzy sent me this. I laughed a lot:

You know you’re from Emmanuel when:

1)The bells wake you up for class, then lunch… and possibly class again.

2)You know what LLH stands for and it’s "Mad Far!"

3)You’ve walked under a closing gate saying, "I’m not eating."

4)You’ve snuck a friend into dinner by saying, "I’m not eating."

5)The soft serve machine never has its handles.

6)Chocolate chip cookies are always the first dessert to run out.

7)You know who Francisco is and you like him better than, "the new guy."

8)You’ve sat inside the Yawkey center for like, I don’t know… hours.

9)St Joe’s is where it’s "AT"

10) You didn’t know where St. James was until your second semester of your freshman year.

11)You know about "Ghetto Loretto".

12) You’ve just discovered there are more than three floors to the administration building.

13) You’ve caught yourself saying, "Did you put me on the list?" with Panic.

14) You’ve caught yourself saying, "It closes at eleven, we need to find someone to go!" with Panic.

15)You’ve heard about "the ghosts" "the nun who killed herself" and/or "The rosary beads."

16)You’ve walked through, laid or played in our "Quad."

17)You’ve visited every club on Lansdowne Street and then some…

18)Everybody seems to be smoking… something.

19)COF is a joke.

20)You’re in about four or five club conferences, yet you never know when the meetings are.

21)Those little red flags annoy you endlessly.

22)You’ve had computer problems… like… all year.

23)Facebook is slowly ruining your life.

24)The red sox became your favorite team for some unknown reason…

And the final way to tell if you’re from Emmanuel is:

"Simmons College" sweatshirts on our campus really piss you off. Two words: GO AROUND!